Origins

About the Person behind Revelin' Vixen:

 My name is Nicole Revels. I am single mother to an amazing little girl named, Alaina, a.k.a "Lil Vixen." My intentions were never to be a single mother. I was happily married, atleast i thought. I had been with my husband for 15 years up until our divorce. Yes, I know 15 years, you don't look that old. Well, I'm not. We were high school sweethearts and i thought I was the luckiest person in the world being lucky enough to find that special someone so early in life. Not all fairy tales have happy endings. My house wasn't a home.

When he first left i had thought my world ended. I never knew you could love someone so deeply and yet hate them. For months it tore my insides out. I didn't know that feeling was me remodeling myself. I was stripping down to the foundation of me. I was going down to the bare minimum of myself trying to figure out what i had done wrong, why i had pushed him away. It wasn't until my wires and frame work were showing and all my emotional turmoil was laid out did i realize, it wasn't me.

With my emotions raw, i realized i needed to remodel and rebuild. I had to find my happiness. I had to find myself. If not for me then for Alaina. The last thing i wanted my beautiful 2 year old to see was her momma struggling to find who she was while still trying to teach her to never let anyone define you except you. You can't teach a lesson you never experienced.

Yes, i did what any heart broken person does. I tried to hide the feelings and even tried to drink them away. It worked for awhile but the feeling of an empty tore down shell of person still remained. I wasn't able to find the material to build myself back up through drinking. I did find some help during this time. I found friends, some i never had met before and some that i never was able to rely on, or i didn't know i could. So, i found my crew.

When i started messing with the idea of a Pin Up lifestyle Model, it was actually a final, desperate attempt for what i had. I thought being dolled up, wearing dresses and really coming out of my shell experimenting outside my normal routine, he would had realized, i was enough. Little did i know jumping into the lifestyle and community was my way of finding my blueprint of who i was. Guess what, he wasn't part of the remodel. In fact, he became a crew member, he supported my journey to find myself.

Revelin' was introduced to the public  September 2014. Scared out of her mind of the unknown. Her name was a play on my married name, but once i looked up means did i really feeling i knew her. Revelin', to find pleasure with or from, Vixen, a sexually attractive women or quarrelsome women.  My name brought to life my personality i knew was deep inside of me. I am not sassy, funny, confident and positive. Everything i once wasn't. That is where this blog will tell you about my journeys. Its been three years now since my first "coming out" but i am here to stay and to continue to build myself and others around me.